Life changes by time

Hey! It's me coming back after more than a year I've been busy with my personal life. To summarize my life events in a sentence: things are changing, like literally.

I was planning many things ever since I entered Universitas Bakrie. To participate in HMPS,BEM,Senat Mahasiswa, is my sequential to-do plan. But as I said, things changed. HMPS taught me many, include those unfavorable things. I did have the joy, and did have the pain too. And thus I was reconsidering my plan, and instead I chose to not participate in BEM after HMPS ended. 

Not just my plan changed, my social circle has been changing too. People I used to spend time with, whom I thought would stay til the senior year here, have been not in my list of close people of mine anymore. I even am sure that I am not in their circle anymore. Sad, indeed. Like seriously, it's a fucking painful thing to begin with. But thats life, time passed, personality revealed and hatred has secretly been growing and spread. 

People I used to talk to for hours, I can't even say hello and naturally smile to them. 

It's very funny that people I think I am not gonna be close to, are now those I can rely on. 

Whats funnier is the activity I used to do hours, compromising class because I was too tired to wake up in he morning as a result of doing the stuffs till midnight, is now the activity I started to feel lazy about. 

I'm thinking that I personally change. Interest upon certain things and people are not the same as what I felt before. 

But that's not the point. What I wanted to tell you is, I think this is a process of shaping my maturity to a better one. Making decisions, to adapt in dynamic situations, to stay polite even to the ones you dislike, and to control emotion. I think I should be grateful and do some self-reflection. By the way, I am 20 now and surrounding by people I love (for now, and I hope they stay longer, or for..ever, forever is a long time btw).

I think it's also a fault to skip blogging. Now I started to think that blogging is a positive thing to do. Share positive things to other, is a good learning. In other side, it promotes good principal: to constantly share the goodness without even expecting something in return. 

I am planning to do a #WeeklyGoodness program, that I should share good things on weekly basis. I hope I can be consistent with this idea. See you on the next post :3

P.S. I'm in the middle of exams. I've done 7 subjects out of 8, and I'm gonna hav my exam on Tuesday. Wish me luck!